Getting It all off my chest

Love
Im single. Again. And I find myself in the mind process that happens everytime a relationship ends. Its funny because I think the most common thing I find is that everytime my mind reverts back to you. And I remember how much I miss you and how much I wish I could be with you everyday. Then I remember how far you are from me and I tell myself "he doesnt care anymore. he never did. he wants you for nothing more than a good time." But for some reason, I still think about you. And what my life could be with you. I dont understand it. I always think Im over you but I miss you. As weird as it is to say maybe when I said I loved you I meant it. I just dont know and wish you werent so far. I still think of you when I hear Kelly Clarkson's remix of Since U Been Gone. And when I hear Sara Bareilles Love Song which you turned me onto as well. I wish things could be different. I wish I would be over you and forget about you. Sometimes I wish you lived closer still and I could be with you.

Friends
So much has changed. Ive made so many new friends and cleansed myself of so many bad ones that I kept for so long. I miss the Quartet. So much and its weird because I say that but I dont put effort into it to try to keep us together. We have all parted and maybe I should accept that that is just how things are and will be forever. I have 145348574503498 boo's currently. And I love them all.

Lust
Yea. I would hook up with you in a heartbeat. But I wont because I know how much satisfaction it would give you to know you got another guy to do what you wanted. And to be completely honest, Im sick of people and their lust. Im sick of being the object of lust to people. Im ready to be somethign else. I want to be something more...

Individuals
1. I love you. and you'll probably never realize it.
2. You are the best boo. But you have fuckin isuues of your own you need to take care of. Stop acting like an idiot.
3. I miss you soo much. I hate that you are all the way in redneck town. And i need you...i really do.

Theres so much more to write but thats enough for now.